Whenever
i read these "About Me's" on other peoples sites i always
say to myself, "i wonder what this person is really like"
so with that in mind i write this bit about me and would of course
like to suggest that i am a perfectly normal, happy and contended
with my lot in life kinda lady. But if life was that perfect,
none of us would have any need to even get out of bed each day
so........here go's
I
am a 50 year old
(circa 1955)
mother of two girls, submissive by nature, with an inherent desire
to please.
I
live in a little village on the south east coast of the UK, together
with my Master and our two girls. He (MG) is Master and Head of
the House and His word is final, yet we can still discuss any
issue and He will listen to my point of view, but the final say
will always be His. i am His slave as well as “Mother”
to my girls, roles which i find are quite easily combined to the
benefit of all concerned. That isn’t to say i am perfect,
far from it, what it does mean is that this is how i wish to live
my life and with that happiness, joy and contentment, anything
is possible.
I
do not as such have any major problems to contend with in my life.
I have never really been ill (either mentally or physically) altho
i do have the odd ache and pain as i get older. I am not overly
big or small but about balance myself out over time ( altho currently
i am on the larger size which i am not happy about and i am working
on that issue.)
We
have recently bought our house and together we have such plans
that time never stands still. There is too much to do, many places
to go, things to see.. Together.
Being
submissive isn’t something new in me but rather something
i have discovered late, when i began to feel that there was something
missing from my life but i couldnt put my finger on it. Sitting
in a comfort zone of marriage, that place many people find themselves
in where it is easier to stay than to make the effort to leave
or to rock the proverbial boat. Just as easy to stick with the
house and car, two holidays a year and no money worries, and convince
ones self that this is what “happy” is and all that
entails. For years i found that day after day i had this thought
running around my head that screamed out "There has to be
more to life than this " which like most people i tended
to ignore until i found the internet and D/s chatrooms.
Once i had spent some time in the chatrooms i soon found a joy
opening up inside me, i suddenly found what it was that had been
missing and that there was more to life and i wanted some of it
so i hung around, chatting, getting to know various people and
really rather enjoying the "online" banter that happened
between the Dominants and the submissives and i found that i was
one of those, submissive, one who wanted to feel the control of
another, wanted to have someone who really took an interest in
me, for "me's" sake and not for what i was doing for
them day after day, someone who didnt just take me for granted,
someone who would be pleased by what i did for them. Thats when
i met MG, my now Master, who from the very beginning noticed me
and not what i could do for him but more, what we might do for
one another and i so wanted to have this man around in my life.
Big steps
happened that first few months after we met, sure, there was some
sneaking around, we were both still married but i had already
told my ex that i wasnt happy so it came as no shock to him when
i left and set up home for myself and my two children. MG joined
us some 3 months later and the rest is history.
If i care
to recall i have always been submissive however until i found
D/s i feel that my nature may well have led me down some wrong
turnings, usually to my detriment. People tended to walk away
from, or all over me or i would become clingy as i got deeper
into any sort of loving relationship as i would try to please
all the time, sometimes pre empting the needs of my then partner
who usually began to resent my “intrusion” into their
life.
It wasn’t
until i found D/s that my nature became clear to me and i shall
be eternally grateful to my Master for allowing me to love and
serve and please, in a way that is so natural to me.
Now, three
years on (2005) some profound changes have occurred recently in
the way we conduct our lifestyle, there was D/s where we have
happily come to learn more about ourselves and our needs, wants
etc, learning and experiencing many of the aspects of the lifestyle
and growing into our respective roles within our daily lives until
when we both knew that it was time to move on and now we live
in a Total Power Exchange situation as Master and slave. We took
the leap of faith, left all the comfort behind to be together,
to live an M/s life.. And now i can say, i have found true happiness.
Who am i,
silly question, my Master's slave.
cleo,
24/7 slave to MG
On monday 21st November
2005 i had a stroke. Since then we are bashing our heads against
all the problems of rehabilitation and care that most people never
encounter.There is a blog which will be a record of myroad to
recovery and the thoughts I have along the way.....
Road
to recovery
As of June 2007. we
have celebrated one year since the handfasting and my 52nd Birthday.
life goes on. slave i am. we continue our lifestyle albeit on
a less active level. my recovery progress, however i have accepted
that i will never be completely whole again. Due to inactivity
cause by the result of the stroke i have gained more weight that
i will ever be happy with. We continue to run the
seekers.org.uk website .
Handfasting
~July 21st 2006
Social event~April 2008
Only
days until my Birthday
Positive traits:
You're intuitive enough to
know what's going wrong in a relationship early on
A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone
knows
You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love
with
Negative traits:
Insecurity - you tend to need
a huge amount of comforting from your partner
You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving
you difficult
It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the
next you're down.
Ideal partner:
Someone equally sensitive,
who wants to take time to get to know you deeply
Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family
Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't
hurt!
Dating style:
Slow. You enjoy dates that
last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one
another.
Seduction style:
Quite tender and loving, once
you are comfortable in your relationship.
Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.
Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.
Tips for the future:
Be a little less sensitive.
Not every little mistake should hurt you.
Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put
yourself first sometimes.
